I'm also very busybusybusybee

thank god which allows me to keep my mind off certain things and stress about others..
like the massive amounts of reading I can never get done because all I want to do is sleep.
I started my training at Panera Bread this week.
I have exams next week.
Plus I just found out Thomas won't be able to audition with me for VCU again and so I'm trying to get someone else to go with me.. or else my mom will have to take off work because I'm superstitious about the whole nightmare happening all over again and I don't want to go alone..
Plus I have rehearsals up my butt, another performance next week and I'm trying to impress my teachers and choreographers and peers a lot in the next few months
because it my be the last they see of me and it's important to me to go out with a bang and a smile too.


this is me looking all grown up and spiffy..
this was taken the day all my stuff got stolen out of my car..
it's before I found out..

some pictures of last year's GSA Spring Concert I found..
Tchaikovsky's 4th symphony
we're doing this piece for Todd's Jr Company

guess which one is my butt.. haha




Me & my friend Lauren at Virginia Beach's Redwing Park



one thing I'm trying to get off my mind...
I miss this..

2008 isn't so great

Happy 100th post.

So far this year I have had my heart broken, become very broke, one of my closest friend's found out they have breast cancer, and one of my first and dearest dance teachers has died.

Is Mitt Romney our next hero?

I was watching CNN this morning while they were talking bout the New Hampshire Caucus, when they showed Mick Romney and immediately the similarities popped into my head. He looks like the 'hero' who played the Pres on NBC's hit show Heroes.

(Romney)

vs.

Hello

My manager at JC Penney's/Lifetouch doesn't want me to quit. I am starting lots of rehearsals for Todd's Junior Company again. I have tech rehearsal all next week for the GSA Winter Concert next weekend. Plus I have to write a paper for english. I start work at Panera Bread after that on the 14th and I still have to get my uniform. I have my exams on the 22nd & 24th then my VCU audition the 25th and the Jr Co show on the 26th.

January is going to be a very busy month and Bret is being complicated. Its harder to be friends with a guy after being more than friends.

As the night went on

I would find myself trying hard to laugh and enjoy myself even though the booze was doing it anyways. I caught myself staring at him, wanting to embrace him and give him a really great kiss in front of all his friends. I wanted to take him outside and talk to him about it all. talk about it so I wouldn't feel so ignored. Instead I just sat there fighting blame against reason in my head trying to make out some sort of thought that would ease my mind so I could let my heart heal. I'm left here in shock and hurt again for the second time in month. I always think "this one's different" and that maybe i'll actually get to date guy who I think is really amazing.. but it never happens with those guys. I told him almost everything bout myself and he acts as if we just made out few times and it was nothing special at all. And people wonder why it is so hard for me to trust people...









He locked the door and dragged me around on the bumper.

Now I'm standing outside the window in the freezing cold begging him with my eyes to let me in.