tattoo.

this is me HAPPY.. & a dork, but who's counting?

So I'm finally legally an adult.

I had the best 18th birthday ever, minus the fact that I didn't get to sleep in, I had stupid rehearsal all day, & I never got a birthday kiss (though some others did). But who's counting, right? My friends were awesome. I think we had like 10 bottles of booze plus beer, pretty much the most ever for a party at my house. It was the weirdest experience having all my different worlds of friends colliding and getting along (some not so much). I feel changed now even though it's just another day, another number. I finally feel my age for once. I'm getting my tattoo on thursday. I'm so excited and scared. I think my mom might even come with me. I know that we've been fighting lately but I don't want to push her away. I've been missing my dad a lot lately & I regret what our relationship has become. I miss Erik even more now that I wasn't able to go see him in Texas. I feel like I'm slowly losing everyone close to me. I feel like I lose something for every thing I gain, yet my life feels so unbalanced. I don't know, I guess this is what it feels like to be in a turning point in your life.

Hello March

Just for kicks. Watch this video from Minus The Bear, one of my favorite bands. It may even give you a new way to exercise.


In other news, my mom's friend Tricia will be flying to Maine for her sister-in-law's wedding this weekend. This leaves me without enough frequent flier miles (tickets) to fly to Texas. So I will be having an Erik-less Spring Break. I miss him terribly but hopefully I will get many visits when I move to Richmond.

Speaking of moving, I think it could not come at a better time.. I wish it was sooner though, five months is too far. My family is getting on my every last nerve. I need to get away from them. We've been in this house together for too long, as in we've never lived in a house for more than two years.

I'm still trying to decide if I should get my tattoos or not. If I should get them on my wrists or not, since work will make me cover them up. Which one I should get first. When I should get them. Where to go, who to do them, etc.

But I can't wait.

Here's some of my ideas:














plus I thought of having ETRE VIVANT in script or having the roots become the words in the tree.. but I haven't decided yet.

Senioritis kicking in

I'm going to be getting increasingly restless over the next 6 months now that I am officially in at VCU.

My mom brought me huge packet from VCU on friday after my performance instead of flower. It was infinitely better than flowers.

I can't stop thinking about what to bring, walking to class, meeting new people. I just need all the financial stuff to be taken care of and I hope it doesn't make me stress out.

March & May are going to be exciting months.. I'm busy every weekend in May with performances, going out of town and partying it up at Prom. Then it's graduation and then summer time before I head off to Richtown.

I'm so satisfied right now. I just need a hoppin love life and 20k scholarship and my life til RVA will be complete.