I feel so left out

I feel so alone. My friends don't even try to see me anymore. I rarely get a phone call or text message. They say they miss me but make little to no effort to see me. I'm frustrated with this whole car situation. I'm trying to work a lot so I can save up the rest of my summer paychecks to get another car. But having to find rides and figure a way to work is making it so much harder to do.. I feel like a hopeless wreck and I haven't felt like this in a while. Usually I can get by because of dance and my friends but lately I have neither and it's so hard. I just want to dance, I don't want to deal with any of this. I can't wait for GSA to start I miss everything about it and having a schedule. I wish I had one person I could completely rely on to be there for me but I don't. I just want someone to hold me like Ryan used to when I felt like my life was crashing down. Ugh and my mom isn't making me feel any better.